why am i so selfish to be the only one sustaining this relationship!
aaaaaaaaa

my ultimate dream is to one day live in a farm,
live off my land and have no electricity .

why is it so hard for people to give EVERYTHING up and live free?

Working on new music. Chck out the old myspace.com/saviourface
 

Current Mood: cold
Current Music: Simian Mobile Disco

 

CURRENTLY ON VACATION BUT I HAD TO POST THIS VIDEO! YOU MUST SEE IT!

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: major lazer

I haven't been on the net much.
I started working a week and a half ago.
(awesome because I get to have a lil cash to take on my trip)
I leave this friday on my  2 week trip.
I promise to bring pictures.

I'm at work right now ,totally not wanting to be here.
I been putting in 9 hour shifts.

I start school Aug 28th, at Citrus in Glendora Cali.
The awesome thing about that is that FAFSA approved me and I don't have to pay a penny to go to school this semester!
I have plans to move out by January.



 

Current Mood: crazy
Current Music: UGK all day

I feel tired, very tired.
no energy.
I feel dizzy.
I've lost hunger.
I've lost weight.
I am bored.
 

Current Mood: sick
Current Music: I heart Huckabees soundtrack

I was six years old, and remember everything about that day, about that trip, about leaving our whole family behind.
The 3 of us on a brave journey to a new world, to meet with my father who awaited on the other side.
It was my mother 24 years old (my age right now) My lil brother Rafa was 3 and me.
We left Everything we ever knew , to travel to a distant land to follow my fathers dream to give us a better life.
I didn't realize how far we were going until my mom said we couldn't take the bus to see grandma anymore.
We could only call her. (It took 5 years to go back to the place of my birth.)
I remember when we got to our new house in Indio, CA 
My father had like 5 big black trash bags full of toys for us, mostly stuffed animals, which I LOVED!
Nothing what I thought the U.S.A would be (I dreamed of  SNOW!, snow flakes and snow men)
Instead I got desert and the most horrible heat I had ever felt.
But we were together My dad, mom and Rafa and me.
It was the simplest, poorest, happiest time of my life.
On weekends my Mom and Dad would take us  to all these different parks.
Drinking fountains were fascinating ! In Mexico we didn't have those. Nothing is free in Mexico.
My father would buy us Domino Pizza and it was like the "greatest" christmas like feeling!
Every day after work my dad would play stuffed animals with Rafa and me.
For the first 2 years of grade school, I would cry every day. The most horrible feeling of not being able to communicate.
I did not understand or speak English. I was a loner, super shy, scared, and sad. Things got better I learned English ( :
I love these years of my life, they seem so far away now. But today I realize they are in my heart and will always be.

I have very deep memories , I can remember very clearly things from when I was 3 years of age.
One day I will put together a very small book of just memories from ages 3 to 7.

I also want to say that I really do feel deeply for anyone who has left their place of birth and traveled thousands of miles to follow their dreams.

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Pink Floyd

 a good conversation.
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Current Mood: bored
Current Music: R.E.M. -Day Sleeper